Updates

Each week I reach out
and connect with them,

Clinging to any piece
of information,

Updates serving as
crucial lifelines,

Since any news
about my grandparents,

While sporadic, is
never enough.



09/04/2019 

A Moment

Days, weeks, months
of uncertainty

Came to a close
yesterday.

When your health grew worse
each passing day,

I knew I couldn't
waste another moment.

Some failed to understand,
but my choice was clear.

Family matters more
to me than anything.


07/20/2019

Worth It

The drive took
over an hour,

yet we made it
in time to see you.

Although our time
was short,

It was worth seeing you
smile when your
coffee arrived;

It was worth seeing
you listen to stories
with interest.

My time away from you,
from my loved ones,

Draws to a close in
a matter of days.

07/12/2019

Tensions

Sometimes you know
when the moment is right
to walk away.

So much tension rises...
building, building,
until you can no longer breathe.

After three years,
it's time to be with those
that truly matter.

07/08/2019

Pictures

I look at the pictures
of us when I was young,

Your smile so wide
as I sit next to you;

Photos of me tossing
balls in the basket

You fastened to the gate,
so we can pass the time

during hot summer days.

The years are filled with us
sharing, laughing,

Your grandchildren standing
proudly with you

At different stages of
our lives, these moments

stretching on forever.

We know your thread
will not last forever,

Yet we do all we can
to preserve it.

07/07/2019

Shower

Thankful
to have spent my
Sunday with close family
and friends, a wedding approaching
real soon.

07/01/2019

Crossing Bridges

As the days grow warmer,
I think back on happier times

With my active
poetry community.

Laughter, tears, bonding:
a sisterhood, a tribe.

Over time, change shifted
the landscape of our group.

Misunderstandings beginning
the rift.

Emotions pushing that divide
even further.

I wish things were like
they once were.

For now, I have memories
of times shared, celebrated.


05/24/2019

Not Quite Easier

This weekend is filled 

with family gatherings;

Saturday with my loved ones,

Sunday with his. 

This weekend will bring

emotions I would rather

not deal with,

Yet I will be in the company 

of loved ones, instead of

being alone.

I did that six years ago, and 

that was a huge mistake.

Mom is no longer with me,

yet being with loved ones 

help during this time of year.

I still think of her every day,

and wish she was still with me,

As I quietly wait for 

Mothers Day to pass once again.

05/09/2019

One Week Away

These few days leading
up to Mother's Day

Are usually approached
with trepidation,

Memories of her love
now takes the place

Of phone calls and visits,
still painful many years later.

Even knowing
that she is never far

Still brings sadness,
since our thread

Of communication
is silent.

05/05/2019

Nephew

Sunday
celebrations,
a young boy is a year
older, enjoying innocence
and life.

04/28/2019

Family & Friends

Having
dinner with a
good friend, and seeing my
grandfather in the afternoon,
sharing.

03/31/2019

Closer

Spending
the day prepping
for tomorrow, a day
always difficult, always long
each year.

03/21/2019

Writing

Writing
some poetry,
filling my time with new
subjects handling family time
and bonds.

02/27/2019

Conversations

Speaking
to my cousins
is a refreshing part
of my evening, hearing about
her day.

02/04/2019

Birthday

A fun
relaxing day,
celebrating with him
and his family, a birthday filled
with peace.

02/03/2019

Catching Up

Catching
up with my books,
while talking to family
and making sure I know about
their health.

01/29/2019

Almost Ninety

Seeing
him struggling
to breathe as he speaks makes
me hope that he approaches his
birthday.

01/05/2019

Conversation

I spoke
to my family
this afternoon while I
readied myself for some errands
outside.

12/29/2018

Christmas Evening

Spending
much needed time
with family, traveling
to Paterson and relaxing
with them.

12/25/2018

Holiday Plans

Making
some plans for next
week, making sure I see
friends and family before the year
is done.

12/18/2018