Thursday, September 29, 2016


Breezy rainy day,
wishing I was with my love
this very moment.


Tuesday, September 27, 2016


I love
the days when we
relax and share stories
for hours on end, not thinking
of time.


Monday, September 26, 2016

Monday Morning

A sudden chill brings
autumn closer to us, the
heat leaving for now.


Sunday, September 25, 2016


When I
am stressed, I live
for your deep, sweet embrace,
your warm arms melting all the pain


Saturday, September 24, 2016

Searching for a Miracle

on crowds my thoughts
this morning, seeking more
secure employment with better


Friday, September 23, 2016


Light, feathery clouds
paint the morning skies, the sun
shining overhead.


Friday Morning

to your comfort
is what I always dream
about during breezy autumn


Thursday, September 22, 2016

Journal Entry: Unrest

So much unrest happening in our world today. Riots happening in the South and Mid-West due to racism and police brutality. It would be wonderful for people to look past racial differences, to respect one another, but unfortunately we are unable to do so.

I've always been able to look past color. My Puerto Rican family is of mixed race (my grandmother being a black Puerto Rican, my grandfather being of fair complexion). People would look at my family and stare in surprise when I would introduce my grandmother. I always found that very amusing.

Prejudice was introduced to me at a young age. I recall walking home with my mom, and we passed by two little girls. I smiled at them, since that's what six year olds do, but the girl just gave me a look and said to her friend, 'that white girl just smiled at me', and kept on walking. She never smiled back.

I felt confused, turned to my mom and asked why she called me that. My mom replied, 'people say that to each other sometimes, when they look different'. While I'm a Puerto Rican with light skin, I never thought of myself as 'White', since that what my family would say that about the famous people on television.

As I got older, I continued to witness people saying rude comments about one another. I would hear stories from my grandfather about how life was in Paterson long ago, how neighbors were friendly to each other, then just decided to leave when 'people like us' began moving in. I would take in all of these stories and be in disbelief. How could people hate each other because they looked different? My biracial family taught me that differences in skin color should be embraced!

All the shootings, the violence against each other because of race, must end now. The fact that we're still fighting about race and ethnicity in 2016 is still heartbreaking. We need to look past our differences and learn from one another.



Autumn now arrives,
red and golden leaves drifting
onto cooling soil.


Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Other Way

We look the other way
when conflict arises,

Wave our hands in disgust,
say 'someone will handle it'

As we slip the blinders
over our eyes.

Even when the layers
are peeled back, and hurtful

Words are spoken, people
victimized and beaten

Due to ethnicity,
religion, and gender,

We hope that someone else
will deal with the chaos,

Even when a tyrant
threatens our freedom.


Journal Entry: Breaktime Musings

Afternoon during break, drinking coffee. Since I work with toddlers, this is the only time during my work day that I can truly relax. It helps that the staff lounge is next to a classroom playing naptime music, the calming aura helps. Perhaps it might make me sleep too, but that hasn't happened yet.

For now I'm just checking email and reading Facebook drama postings. How people are tired of reading about celebrity couples divorcing (I could care less about Brad and Angelina), and who's feuding in the goth/industrial music world (too many strong personalities clashing with each other). It's all entertainment to me.

During my breaks four years ago, I would Facebook group chat with 3 other people: two I reconnected with from college, and another whom I met at a birthday party. We kept in contact after the gathering, celebrating birthdays and holidays together. My hour would be filled with laughter and weird stories from these friends. This trio became a lifeline for me after a breakup and move to Manhattan. By reaching out to these friends during my breaks and other moments of free time, I learned to heal. I'm now deeply close with one of these friends, but I'll go into that later!

Break is almost done, now to quickly check email before I return to my little ones. Another lovely day, and taking them outside sounds so ideal.



in the early
morning, time to center
oneself before handling the


Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Tuesday Evening

A deep
stillness enters
this late summer evening,
crickets lulling people into
deep sleep.


Journal Entry: Relaxation and baseball

A moment to myself, unwinding after a long work day. I'm finally doing what I love, yet the work setting is not the most ideal. Despite the challenges, I'm glad it gave me the opportunity to move out of Northern NJ. I lived in a nice neighborhood, yet there was no growth for me there. My former living situation left me in an awkward position with family members. Lots of negative energies whenever I came home. I no longer deal with that, which is a relief.

Now it's the process of getting my creativity off the ground. Feel comfortable with what I can do, and florish while handling a full time work schedule.

Tonight, I'm watching the Mets game. They're turning out to have a good season, even with all the injuries they've endured. It's already been a dramatic week in baseball...there was a West coast game that had a good bench-clearing moment. Too bad that it was a West coast in New Jersey, I was already fast asleep when it happened!

#LGM 🍎



Growing up it was
the two of us,

Siblings not through blood
but devotion.

We shared and laughed
together through the pain.

Over time we went
our separate ways;

Our connections now
held together through

Limited calls and updates
through family, if that.

I moved away from our
home town, while you

Continue to make sense
of your life,

Now having another
to care for.

I reach out to lend
support, yet it's met

With silence on
the other end.

Years move on, pages
of time always turning;

Our journeys became split,
yet my bond with you

Remains the same in spirit,
and I strive to keep it whole.



Some deep
connections crack
over time, and we are
left to mend the bridges that have


Monday, September 19, 2016


Even though time flips through
the pages of our lives,

I think of moments spent
with friends, loved ones,

People who stayed for
a certain amount of time

And exited, for one reason
or another.

Sometimes I am the one
who sticks around and leaves,

My duration in their story
coming to an end.

We all have journeys
that we travel on,

Each path unique,



Your touch
ignites my soul,
quenching a deep longing,
and I await to be with you


Saturday, September 17, 2016

Saturday Morning

Beautiful morning
with my fiancé, blue skies
and a soothing breeze.


Thursday, September 15, 2016


We now
decide to move on
together, the next step
in the story of us, turning
the page.


Wednesday, September 14, 2016


He then
whispered 'every
second with you is so
wonderful' on that cool summer


Tuesday, September 13, 2016


Breathing in,
I call peace to

Enter my soul,
silencing the stress

That enters my

Breathing out,
The tension exits,

My soul calming with
each cleansing breath.



I stayed submerged
in the litter for years,

The kind that crowds
the mind with doubt,

And I now begin to
pick through the pieces,

Removing the waste, while
keeping layers of life.


Monday, September 12, 2016


Memorable weekend,
spending some time with loved ones
as summer winds down.


Thursday, September 8, 2016


The place
to be sings with
rolling waves, singing birds
and miles of sand, flowing as smooth
as silk.


Wednesday, September 7, 2016


Pulled in
two directions,
both places showing real
contentment, yet I can only
choose one.


Tuesday, September 6, 2016


Summer breezes start
to fade as leaves fall from trees.
Fall knocks on our door.


With You

With you
I feel complete,
someone to share my dreams
and triumphs, knowing that I found
my love.


Sunday, September 4, 2016


Relaxing weekend
with loved ones, watching the clear
sunset on the lake.



Beauty in Sunday
morning, waking to the song
of birds in sunlight.



up to sunrise,
a lovely sight after
dreading the fierce flooding that was


Friday, September 2, 2016


Relaxing before
the workday starts, a fresh
beginning awaits.


Thursday, September 1, 2016


Resting peacefully
on a warm Thursday evening,
summer still alive.