Thursday, September 29, 2016

Rain

Breezy rainy day,
wishing I was with my love
this very moment.

09/29/2016

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Stories

I love
the days when we
relax and share stories
for hours on end, not thinking
of time.

09/27/2016

Monday, September 26, 2016

Monday Morning

A sudden chill brings
autumn closer to us, the
heat leaving for now.

09/26/2016

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Embracing

When I
am stressed, I live
for your deep, sweet embrace,
your warm arms melting all the pain
away.

09/25/2016

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Searching for a Miracle

Moving
on crowds my thoughts
this morning, seeking more
secure employment with better
income.

09/24/2016

Friday, September 23, 2016

Feathery

Light, feathery clouds
paint the morning skies, the sun
shining overhead.

09/23/2016

Friday Morning

Going
to your comfort
is what I always dream
about during breezy autumn
mornings.

09/23/2016

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Journal Entry: Unrest

So much unrest happening in our world today. Riots happening in the South and Mid-West due to racism and police brutality. It would be wonderful for people to look past racial differences, to respect one another, but unfortunately we are unable to do so.

I've always been able to look past color. My Puerto Rican family is of mixed race (my grandmother being a black Puerto Rican, my grandfather being of fair complexion). People would look at my family and stare in surprise when I would introduce my grandmother. I always found that very amusing.

Prejudice was introduced to me at a young age. I recall walking home with my mom, and we passed by two little girls. I smiled at them, since that's what six year olds do, but the girl just gave me a look and said to her friend, 'that white girl just smiled at me', and kept on walking. She never smiled back.

I felt confused, turned to my mom and asked why she called me that. My mom replied, 'people say that to each other sometimes, when they look different'. While I'm a Puerto Rican with light skin, I never thought of myself as 'White', since that what my family would say that about the famous people on television.

As I got older, I continued to witness people saying rude comments about one another. I would hear stories from my grandfather about how life was in Paterson long ago, how neighbors were friendly to each other, then just decided to leave when 'people like us' began moving in. I would take in all of these stories and be in disbelief. How could people hate each other because they looked different? My biracial family taught me that differences in skin color should be embraced!

All the shootings, the violence against each other because of race, must end now. The fact that we're still fighting about race and ethnicity in 2016 is still heartbreaking. We need to look past our differences and learn from one another.

09/24/2016

Autumn

Autumn now arrives,
red and golden leaves drifting
onto cooling soil.

09/22/2016

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Other Way

We look the other way
when conflict arises,

Wave our hands in disgust,
say 'someone will handle it'

As we slip the blinders
over our eyes.

Even when the layers
are peeled back, and hurtful

Words are spoken, people
victimized and beaten

Due to ethnicity,
religion, and gender,

We hope that someone else
will deal with the chaos,

Even when a tyrant
threatens our freedom.

09/21/2016




Journal Entry: Breaktime Musings

Afternoon during break, drinking coffee. Since I work with toddlers, this is the only time during my work day that I can truly relax. It helps that the staff lounge is next to a classroom playing naptime music, the calming aura helps. Perhaps it might make me sleep too, but that hasn't happened yet.

For now I'm just checking email and reading Facebook drama postings. How people are tired of reading about celebrity couples divorcing (I could care less about Brad and Angelina), and who's feuding in the goth/industrial music world (too many strong personalities clashing with each other). It's all entertainment to me.

During my breaks four years ago, I would Facebook group chat with 3 other people: two I reconnected with from college, and another whom I met at a birthday party. We kept in contact after the gathering, celebrating birthdays and holidays together. My hour would be filled with laughter and weird stories from these friends. This trio became a lifeline for me after a breakup and move to Manhattan. By reaching out to these friends during my breaks and other moments of free time, I learned to heal. I'm now deeply close with one of these friends, but I'll go into that later!

Break is almost done, now to quickly check email before I return to my little ones. Another lovely day, and taking them outside sounds so ideal.

09/21/2016

Resting

Resting
in the early
morning, time to center
oneself before handling the
workday.

09/21/2016

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Tuesday Evening

A deep
stillness enters
this late summer evening,
crickets lulling people into
deep sleep.

09/20/2016

Journal Entry: Relaxation and baseball

A moment to myself, unwinding after a long work day. I'm finally doing what I love, yet the work setting is not the most ideal. Despite the challenges, I'm glad it gave me the opportunity to move out of Northern NJ. I lived in a nice neighborhood, yet there was no growth for me there. My former living situation left me in an awkward position with family members. Lots of negative energies whenever I came home. I no longer deal with that, which is a relief.

Now it's the process of getting my creativity off the ground. Feel comfortable with what I can do, and florish while handling a full time work schedule.

Tonight, I'm watching the Mets game. They're turning out to have a good season, even with all the injuries they've endured. It's already been a dramatic week in baseball...there was a West coast game that had a good bench-clearing moment. Too bad that it was a West coast game...living in New Jersey, I was already fast asleep when it happened!

#LGM 🍎

09/20/2016

Whole

Growing up it was
the two of us,

Siblings not through blood
but devotion.

We shared and laughed
together through the pain.

Over time we went
our separate ways;

Our connections now
held together through

Limited calls and updates
through family, if that.

I moved away from our
home town, while you

Continue to make sense
of your life,

Now having another
to care for.

I reach out to lend
support, yet it's met

With silence on
the other end.

Years move on, pages
of time always turning;

Our journeys became split,
yet my bond with you

Remains the same in spirit,
and I strive to keep it whole.

09/20/2016

Splintered

Some deep
connections crack
over time, and we are
left to mend the bridges that have
splintered.

09/20/2016

Monday, September 19, 2016

Unique

Even though time flips through
the pages of our lives,

I think of moments spent
with friends, loved ones,

People who stayed for
a certain amount of time

And exited, for one reason
or another.

Sometimes I am the one
who sticks around and leaves,

My duration in their story
coming to an end.

We all have journeys
that we travel on,

Each path unique,
significant.

09/19/2016

Ignite

Your touch
ignites my soul,
quenching a deep longing,
and I await to be with you
again.

09/19/2016

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Decision

We now
decide to move on
together, the next step
in the story of us, turning
the page.

09/15/2016

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Whispering

He then
whispered 'every
second with you is so
wonderful' on that cool summer
evening.

09/14/2016

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Meditation

Breathing in,
I call peace to

Enter my soul,
silencing the stress

That enters my
psyche.

Breathing out,
The tension exits,

My soul calming with
each cleansing breath.

09/13/2016

Submerged

I stayed submerged
in the litter for years,

The kind that crowds
the mind with doubt,

And I now begin to
pick through the pieces,

Removing the waste, while
keeping layers of life.

09/13/2016 

Monday, September 12, 2016

Memorable

Memorable weekend,
spending some time with loved ones
as summer winds down.

09/12/2016

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Silk

The place
to be sings with
rolling waves, singing birds
and miles of sand, flowing as smooth
as silk.

09/08/2016

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Pulled

Pulled in
two directions,
both places showing real
contentment, yet I can only
choose one.

09/07/2016

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Knocking

Summer breezes start
to fade as leaves fall from trees.
Fall knocks on our door.

09/06/2016

With You

With you
I feel complete,
someone to share my dreams
and triumphs, knowing that I found
my love.

09/06/2016

Sunday, September 4, 2016

Orchard

Relaxing weekend
with loved ones, watching the clear
sunset on the lake.

09/04/2016

Beauty

Beauty in Sunday
morning, waking to the song
of birds in sunlight.

09/04/2016

Waking

Waking
up to sunrise,
a lovely sight after
dreading the fierce flooding that was
coming.

09/04/2016

Friday, September 2, 2016

Awaits

Relaxing before
the workday starts, a fresh
beginning awaits.

09/02/2016

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Resting

Resting peacefully
on a warm Thursday evening,
summer still alive.

09/01/2016